Declaration of Independence

This post is my declaration of independence.
(Minus the paragraph after this that summarizes the days that I have forgotten to write about)

I have neglected writing to not only to save myself from writing everything down after the exciting days when I was tired, but from the boring days when there was nothing to write. In the time that has passed that has now brought September to my doorstep, it has also brought me new memories, experiences, and hopes for the future. I had the privilege of performing in Martha's Vineyard with some of my fellow Dean dancers doing Hip Hop Company for Kelly Peters. While there I met, some amazing dancers and was inspired by their passion for dance. Even the company of my fellow Dean dancers inspired me and made me realize how much I'd miss not being at school with them this fall. I journeyed to CT that weekend for my friend's birthday party. It was nice to have the group of us reunited once again, even if a few of us weren't there. I must admit it was a little awkward seeing my ex there, seeing as every graduation/BBQ party I went to last year, we were either a) together, b) slept together or c) he took me home. So going to this party I knew I'd feel slightly out of place due to the only history I had of going to these events was in the concept of a "couple"...and of course I feared his girlfriend would be there. I am thankful she was not. And it's not because I hate her, I just want to ease into being single around our friends and watching them kiss and feel each other up would probably, not only have broken my heart just a little again, but would have made me feel so unwanted. I haven't always felt secure within this group of friends because at school I was there fellow dancer and then the others I met and became better friends because I was seeing him. So imagine my dismay, always wondering if because the relationship is over if their friendships had shifted sides. A pointless worry I have been assured, since they are all still quite happy to know me and be my friend. Then the hurricane came and my nerves were at the ends, due to worry. My father insisted on doing things outside still, and I always worry about him. The days in between these events was spent with laying around in bed watching TV, or reading, or crafting. Dull things to just pass the time and not really blog worthy. Yesterday Alex had an end of the summer pool party with some of our Dean classmates coming since they've already been at school rehearsing. Last night we went to Dean to continue the party. I saw my old condo, which one of friends is living in. And of course per Dean the drama broke out at the party, not surprising. And every since that moment I have been thinking and thinking.

(this would be the declaration....)

I am certainly not the person I used to be this time last year. I have come to acknowledge there are certain matters I am quite firm on. Certain principles if you will.

I do not think you have to drink to have fun at a party. My body is a temple and I will not abuse it with drugs. I believe everyone deserves love. I do not believe anyone has the right to dictate the way my heart feels for another. I do not think you can call yourself an adult, when you turn to childish maneuvers in an adult situation. We are all traveling on our own course and if you can not accept another's course then you should not stand in their way. No one on earth is perfect and holding a person up to perfection is an insult to both them and yourself.  If you cease to continue to learn, then you are doing yourself a great disservice. You can not reasonably ever know what a person has been through, so judging purely by your own morals, ethics, and mannerisms will leave you with an unfinished picture of the person if you do not take into account their upbringing. The pains of the past have a place in our future. People who do not and can not stand by you when you are at your lowest, do not deserve to stand by you at your highest. Everyone makes mistakes and while some mistakes are bigger than others, all mistakes are learning experiences. A person must stand by the principles which they think to be true and right, even if others may think they are wrong. By everything that you define yourself by there will be an opposite truth. For every time you stand your ground, you will wonder if the choice you made was right. Every person on this earth is a hypocrite at one time or another, it just makes a difference on which subjects you choice to change your mind on.

Inception

Alright, I know I'm late to see it, but sweet jesus that was such a good movie. Alright now I have to write out some of my crazy thoughts/theories about the film or I'll never sleep tonight. As the last scene came onto the screen I had an idea where the film would end [spoiler] a close up on the top with it spinning, it was if it would fall or not that I was unsure of. I realize that I will NEVER have the answers, but for tonight I need to logically try to figure this shit out.

Before I debate how the movie actually ended...there are certain facts/information revealed during the movie that must be considered truthful in order for these following theories to even be plausible.

1. Cobb was married & had 2 children with his wife(Mal).
2. Totems actually work.
3. Arthur and the gang are real people.
4.Cobb's motivation is to get home.

Alright so let's just say that from the way the film ends that the top is still spinning, when in Reality it should have fallen already. That leads the viewer to conclude that the Homecoming is a Dream. Let's accept that. Dream Homecoming is a dreamworld where the Fischer Mission has been completed and everyone is alive.

• This is where things take a left turn, so let's label this theory DH1[dream homecoming1]. In DH1 the Fischer Mission was Reality, but Cobb being lost in Limbo, while inder in the Fischer Mission, and is unable to get himself back to Reality, creates the Homecoming dream. Okay. Simple enough.
• DH2, while in Limbo with Saito as an old man. Cobb realizes what has happened, but Saito for whatever motivation doesn't want to return to Reality...shots Cobb, there by killing him and sending Cobb, yet further into Limbo. This is somewhat plausible, but the question remains whose dreamworld is that Limbo? When that dream architecture is first seen it's while Saito is under and Cobb & Arthur are under in an outside architect's dreamworld, making Cobb the architect of the dream-within-a-dreamworld. Ahh. Maybe?
• DH3, the Fischer Mission is fake. Is not real. The Fischer Mission was a dream created by Cobb in order for him to create a way for himself to accomplish his ultimate motivation/goal of seeing his childern again, since he finally sees their faces at the end of the film.Reasonible, but then when does Reality end? Does Reality end after the Fischer Inception is first suggested? When Cobb nods to offer is that where the Dream begins...for that you'd have to decide if his nod meant yes or 'I'll think about it".
• Let's say then that DH3 has some merit and all of the happenings after the helicopter is fake, a dream. That would mean that the Arthur shown throughout the rest of the film is Cobb's projection of what Arthur is. This also means that everyone on the "team" is a projection. Prehaps they are projections there to help protect Cobb's mind from Mal? Cobb's own military projection from the guilt of his wife's death. Which would mean what that, Cobb's deepest. darkest secret was that he had performed Inception on his wife and that ultimately had lead to her death?
• Alright last theory for these rules of Reality...the top wobbled at the end...does that mean if Cobb was in a dream that wherever he was having the dream was altering the gravitional pull of the Homecoming...say a plane perchance? Which strengthens the Limbo theory or is dreaming somewhere completely different that the viewer has no previous knowledge of?

Now let's say that when the top was wobbling at the end before the film cut out that it actually fell. That would mean that the Homecoming was Reality. Therefore validating the entire movie and all the dreamworlds as actual events in alternate realities. If that's true then the only question left is how did both Cobb and Saito jolt out of Limbo? Did Cobb shoot Saito or vice versa? Or neither? That one will probably always be unanswerable.

Okay. Now let's say for arguement's sake that the 4 previous rules stated are not truthful and cannot be seen as markers for Reality. Then the entire movie is a dream in which Cobb is constructing. Cobb never actually had a wife or children. Does that seem more plausible then any of the other theories? I feel like at least some part of the film had to have a sliver of Reality in it. I think that the four rules are true and that is what Reality is based on. As for what was a dream in reguards to the Fischer Mission....gahh I can't decide. I'd like to think that the Fischer Mission was apart of Reality and that the only question that remains is: Does Cobb escape Limbo with Saito to be reunited with his family or is the Homecoming the next Limbo for Cobb?